Mozard's PhD

Alhamdullillah!!!! Mozard has managed to get the scholarship from UM and KPT to further his studies in Aston! hehe! So he will become my "junior" now! heheh!

I am so thankful to Allah for blessing us with soo much this past 1 1/2 years. Its totally unimaginable. And Yet I feel this extreme guilt for being this blessed. I feel as if I have not been a good muslim and most of the time I feel as if I do not deserve this much blessing. My mom use to say, "be sure that you're thankful. You're not sure if he is giving this because I am a good muslim, or because he has given up on me and just give me what I want .. something like .. Nah! Ambiklah!!!" She said that I should always pray that whatever I have received dah diberkati Allah.

I tell you.. when I took this PhD and when Mozard is praying to take his PhD both of us always pray that this would not only be good for me and him, but for everyone... I mean everyone!! I pray that I would one day become a good lecturer that is able to inspire my students be a better people. You see, my grandfather was a teacher, two of my uncles are lecturers .. its in my blood. Mozard, his mother is a teacher .. so its in his blood too.

From a very young age, my grandfather use to tell me that being a teacher is a noble job, but a huge responsibility. I have seen alot of my grandfather's students telling us how much my grandfather has made and impact on their lives. I hope to be able to do that one day. I hope I would be able to inspire the younger generation to be better people. I enjoy teaching. I enjoy interacting with students. I shun on those lecturers who totally despise students, that chases them away and totally disregard them. I don't understand why they choose to be lecturers in the first place? I sincerely hope that I would never turn into one of them.

Anyways, I am very thankful for all of you who have prayed for Mozard. Thank you soo very much!

I am also very very very thankful for my mom. Gosh! I think if it was not for her agressiveness, I don't think Mozard would be able to take his PhD this year. She called here and there, chase after everyone from KPT to UM. From HR to my faculty! Amazing. I think that's where I got my agressiveness from .. my mom!

I am also very thankful for my dad who actually spend a rahter big sum of money to buat kenduri to doa for us. My mom use to say that I am very lucky because I still have "doa" from a lot of people. My grandparents pun doakan for me. I am thankful for my parent-in-law for their prayers for our successes.

I am very very thankful for having such wonderful siblings and sibling-in-laws, who are willing to go literally EVERYWHERE for me. Who helped settle alot of things that need to be settled. No matter how busy they were, or how hectic their lives have been .. they still find the time to do errands for me.

I am thankful for the wonderful friends that I have who has prayed for our success. I wish all of you all the success that you need di dunia and akhirat!!!

My heart is filled with soo much gratitude... soo much love. Sometimes I feel as if I do not deserve this much from all of you. I hope someday, I am able to repay everyone for all their help, prayers and well wishes. I have been too self absorbed far too long.

Thank you and may Allah bless all of you .. Dunia dan Ahirat.